Compelling. 

Next

You are at this point of the year where the transition has begun to roll. Images of the current year flashing back and forth in your mind and at the same time anticipating the new year and what it will unfold.

For me, i am excited. Ecstatic. Anticipating the new opportunities and life that will be in store for me.

I cannot wait!

The 19th

This date is shared by the three of us friends... Just wanna wish both friends of mine a memorable Birthday as well.


C-A-G

Mellow My Mind

Been bogged down of late. The prologue of the final and conclusive impediment shall be superseded abruptly with the epilogue of a period of this life. Things will slip with a blur from then on. The annums speeding through to an ambivalent, unthreaded way of existence. Like a tree branch, a sprout so out of place, so unbelonging.

This part of it, a diminutive scrawl in the continuity of our allowances on earth. It proved a soul-searching experience. A stanza definitive of the rest of the one identity beholded.

The stage concluding... The curtains drawing back. We have reached the final leaves of the pages. Never to unfold again.

Here from the top of the mountain, i see you there... In the cool night air... Someday in my life, someday in my life...

Two personal friends of mine,

www.kenneth-vernon.com
www.jimmylim.co.nz

Edo's Cocktail Party 

Mission Accomplished 

Beautiful Yen 

Vivi 

Haryono... A great guy indeed 

Sunshine Spots 

This is the second time i consult my blog in a span of just a few hours. I guess im still not pacified. The raging emptiness inside.

Cho Siao Lang!

I think for once I will banter in a normal ‘journal’ style posting rather than the usual incoherent polysyllables.

SIGH!!!! I’m so frus!!! I just wanna let go and let loose man! I just wanna go on a midnight drive to the beach alone. Not at the moment, but something ill definitely do VERY FREAKING SOON. Im so freaking restless and bored with everything. Darn uni commitments. I want to change everything. Wanna have a new ‘ride’. Wanna try new objects, experiences whatever la! Im just friggin day dreaming everyday. I wanna go crazy and terrorise everyone. La la la. I want to see all those ppl in the past again. I want to go Thailand and then FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 10 YEARS have my first real CHINESE NEW YEAR in my hometown. I wanna hoard all the fucking red ANG POW and flaunt it. Tsk!

AHH AHH AHH AHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NEED TO RELEASE!!! I WANNA LET IT ALL OUT!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AHH AHH AHH AHH AHH AHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Somehow I just cant articulate it. Its inside me but how to I let it out. How do I magnify my exasperation thru stupid arial font!! My god la.

I think right this minute I just need a drive. Or maybe a company where we could go out in the darkness and drive to infinity and beyond chattering about all the craziest thing and forget everything and then stuff ourselves with takeaway.

Heres a thought I came up with today: “things obtainable are never sought. things unobtainable are lusted”

SIAO LIAO!

Back to my stupid uni commitment.

Sleep where art thou?

I could always empathise with people who come to me with their sleep problems and insomnia. I remember the awful year of 2002 where i suffered sleep problems for one whole year. Now seriously, i really did manage just around 2 nights of decent sleep. The reason being i was so tired from the other sleepless nights i guess my body just had to shut down and sleep.

Insomnia can be a traumatic and an extremely frustrating experience... I was so bothered by it i would literally cry in desperation to sleep in bed. God! writing these sentences bring back bad memories as of now!

However, through that experience, i have developed a few techniques in combating sleeplessness. Though they sound bizarre and maybe ridiculous, i see no reason for a desperate imsomniac to sidestep some of my 'ahem' remedies. Hiak hiak.

First Remedy: Half/half Remedy

1. Lie down on your bed in a comfortable position.
2. Open your eyelids halfway.
3. Stress your eyelids so it is tired. Try to open it halfway as long as possible.

The logic in this remedy is that the muscles behind the eyelids become strained and tired, thus making you sleepy.

Second Remedy: Blow-Dry Remedy

1. Lie down on your bed in a comfortable position.
2. Turn on a fan on the lowest speed and blow it straight into your face.
3. Open your eyes and keep them open allowing the wind to blow into your eyes.

The logic behind this remedy is that the wind dries your eyes making them tired. Plus the constant monotonous whirring of the fan motor will probably get your mind off things.

Good Luck!

Juvenile Wisdom

Fictitional and apocryphal. I implore you not utter forth wisdom at such infantile age. Do not proclaim thyself a veteran of life. Leave that to our fathers. Do not deplore over the convolutions and throes of life when you have yet to taste the unsurmountable mount of bitterness yet to come. Do not state it the way an elder would make an absolute. You do not possess the mental capacity nor experience. Do not tutor others on the protocols of life. Do not attempt to decipher the sentiments of others nor affinity of their ranks. Do not behave in such a manner proclaiming your coming of adulthood and senilism.

Let us live the way our age pronouce it to be lived.

As a matter of fact, every human relations are condemned to an expiry date. From the very first encounter, we may as well commence the countdown. The clock that count the days toward the future when we will be separated. Be it the end of the year or 50 years down the road, the days pass slowly but surely. Separation a forgone certainty.